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Posted: Mon Feb 4th, 2008 03:53 pm |
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Hi everyone.
I guess you could say that I'm feeling pretty excited about life at the moment. I handed in my notice at my current job, and I'm starting a new role in a couple of weeks. I feel like I can do anything, I frequently feel fantastic, and I feel like the missing piece of the jigsaw has been shown to me. I am very excited.
A quick intro to me. I'm 30, single, English, man, professional, living and working in London. About three years ago I was in a lot of emotional pain, and was encouraged by a friend to visit Al- anon. My mother is an alcoholic, and I guess you could say my efforts to control the world had not succeeded. I was basically addicted to the approval of others, and what they thought of me. My self esteem was very low indeed. It left no area of my life unturned.
Since I have been in Al-anon, working the 12 steps of AA, I have managed to start recovery of myself. I got halfway through the steps and felt the majority wqs good but still my seeking continued. I was reading these books by Emmet Fox, the sermon on the mount and power through constructive thinking, and I knew there was something there. I then read a book called "journey of souls", by Michael Newton? It opened my eyes to my fear of death, and how it held me back. I went to see my Al-anon Sponsor (one who guides you through the steps) and I told him where I was at. He suggested a few things to me. As I left our meeting, I felt very strong negative emotion (I was furious), and thought, this can't be right? He's a very spiritual person you see, so why did I feel so furious. I came to the conclusion that my reaction was due to him telling me what to do, and that his words weren't right for me. I also came to the conclusion that everyone needs to find their own path, an that the value of another's opinion is not greater than your own. Even if I make a (so called) mistake, I must do it myself to know what works for me.
The problem is coming from a place of no self appreciation I have tended to take other's views as more inportant of valid than my own. Fortunately that is turning around
Anyway I was browsing the web and came across Ask and It is given, and that was my intro to Jerry Esther and Abraham. I read the book non stop for days, and that was a couple of months ago, since then I have listened to all of the special subjects series, and many other tapes.
The 12 steps have helped me enormously to begin to love myself and appreciate myself, and to let others be themselves, and they (the steps) also introduced me to the concept of detaching with love from the world (allowing), and I was doing this as part of step 6. But now that I listen to Abraham, my understanding of the 12 steps has changed considerably. I'm feeling a bit apprehensive about being around people who continue to talk about the same old stuff and problems, as I know that if I pay attention then I will end up reliving the circumstances again and again.
SO at the moment, I'm wondering what to do next. I've spoken with my sponsor about it, I deeply love many of my al-anon friends but I want to move forward. I'm also aware that I have some residual pain from my childhood, which may or may not surface.
Well, quite an intro I know, but that's me for today. I think this stuff is great and I'd love to hear from you guys, if you relate to me. Of course, I will be attracting those on my wavelength, so I am already looking forward to hearing from you 
londonboy
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Posted: Mon Feb 4th, 2008 04:35 pm |
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WELCOME LONDON BOY!!!
I AM IN PARIS!
Its great to have you here, you are going to thrive!
This is a wonderful place to be!!
I love it!
I am my own vortex!!
Lucy
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Posted: Mon Feb 4th, 2008 04:40 pm |
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Hmmm I just read the part you said about moving away from your friends in Al Anon.
That has happened a lot for me too with friends since I discovered Abraham, it just means that I am vibrating differently to what I was before.
Maybe these beliefs served you before, and new people and better opportunities are on their way to you!
Just allow it!
If you chose to vibrate differently, people will either move up the emotional guidance scale with you, or disappear out of your life (i have seen both).
Its all good, there is only a stream of well being! Trust the Universe!
All is well!!
kisses
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londonboy
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Posted: Tue Feb 5th, 2008 04:36 pm |
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That's just it. It's all about vibrational alignment. It's so true. The more I look fror the evidence in my life (or should I say the more the law of attraction works on my current vibratinal set point), the more it becomes clear.
The teachings of Abraham are so profoundly life changing, and the beliefs that I would have them replace are so deep seated that I am finding it necessary to continually read and re-read the material. This one is really getting me
There is nothing that affects my life experience other than the way I am flowing energy. No merit, no assertion, no luck, no concidences, no statistics. None of that means anything. Essentially what we are talking about is that you can be do or have anything that you want. Anything? Anything. Wow!!!!!!
Well, I think I'll just let that sink in for a bit. It's a bit like someone telling you that all of the rules that you thought ran your cause and effect world, no longer exist. The reason I have a few extra pounds around my waist and yet my shoulders and chest are quite lean is because I have had a negative attitude towards the former, and a positive attitude to the latter. I need to do more visualisation (English spelling)
Well, I'm very excited to be here (in this magnificent physical body  )
Londonboy
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Posted: Tue Feb 5th, 2008 05:00 pm |
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You are already doing WONDERFULLY!
The better it gets, the better it gets!!
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Posted: Tue Feb 5th, 2008 08:52 pm |
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Hi, Londonboy
Welcome to the forum.
I'm not familiar with the 12 steps so I can't really comment on your particular situation, but it sounds as if you are in touch with your own inner guidance.
Did you know Jerry and Esther will be in London in May? I'm going to their Bristol workshop and thinking about going to the London one as well.
Sally
P.S. I was looking over earlier pages of the forum and found this thread, which might be of interest: http://www.theabeforum.com/forum2/478.htmlLast edited on Tue Feb 5th, 2008 09:31 pm by Sally
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Posted: Tue Feb 5th, 2008 09:37 pm |
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Funny you should mention that Sally, I just opened an envelope from Hay House with my ticket for the event in May.
I feel a wonderful connection with this material. I want to meet like minded people at the workshop, and I'm really looking forward to it. I shall commence the pre-paving now...
The 12 steps are, in essence, a means of coming back to appreciating self, and learning to detach with love (allow others to be themselves). It is a spiritual process, which has opened many doors, one of which was Abraham's.
It's interesting what happens when I start looking at my life from a perspective of LOA. Suddenly lots of things start to make sense. Situations and events which puzzled me which happened years ago are clarified by using the LOA.
I wonder how much Abraham knows about us, being that they're non physical beings and all. I wonder if they can read our thoughts. I'd imagine so.....
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Posted: Tue Feb 5th, 2008 09:52 pm |
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Welcome to the Forum londonboy!
It's wonderful to know that so much value comes to us from the sharing of the diversity of our respective journeys. Your contributions to our expansion will be felt immediately by this group gathered here -- I'm sure of it. Thank you in advance!
One of the things I love about this Forum is that the surface details of our respective lives are so uniquely our own, but the underpinings are so powerfully universal. It's great to have you here with us.
Warmly,
Tara
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Posted: Tue Feb 5th, 2008 10:23 pm |
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Thanks for the warm welcome Tara, I feel at home already.
And thanks Sally for the link to Abe's 12 steps. As I read through it really is so typical of Abe; totally non judgemental, ever evolving, seeing our paths as something good no matter what happened. I love it! They are absolutely spot on when they say there is much love there for us. No judgement, I've ordered the CDs, looking forward to hearing them. Everything that we encounter up to this point i our lives has value either to bridge us tot he point of clarity that we currently understand or as an essential point of contrast to show us the path we want to be on.
I'm going to hit the hay.
Londonboy
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Posted: Tue Feb 5th, 2008 10:38 pm |
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If you'd like a copy of the next 12 steps dialogue in PDF format, let me know of your e-mail address through a private message, and I can send them to you as an attachment!
The reason they know so much about us is that we are extensions of them--the only separation is the one that we believe in.
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Posted: Tue Feb 5th, 2008 11:28 pm |
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Scott wrote: The reason they know so much about us is that we are extensions of them--the only separation is the one that we believe in.
 
Thank you, Scott!
And welcome, Londonboy!!!!
Love,
Christine ~ I AM A GODDESS ~
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Posted: Wed Feb 6th, 2008 09:23 am |
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Hi Londonboy, welcome... 
It's so nice to have you participating, you will love it here! There is so much to learn and lots of friends ready to give great advice when needed.  
Love and hugs for you 
Martha
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Posted: Wed Feb 6th, 2008 10:58 am |
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I almost forgot to mention.
I was meditating last night shortly before going to sleep, focussing on my breathing, when I had these intense buzzing waves throuhg my body, and my lower jaw started vibrating, my teeth chattering together. I said some Abe recommended affirmations
"I realise that I am more than I see her ein this physical body, there is another part of me, an older broader wiser part of me that exits at the same time in the non physical dimension. I seek communication with that perspective, "
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"I see and draw to me, through divine love, those beings who seek enlightnement through my process, the sharing will elevate us both now."
I was definitely buzzing with my inner Being. And It Felt Wonderful....
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Posted: Wed Feb 6th, 2008 11:10 am |
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| Wow, how wonderful to have that connection with source! Sometimes my hands start trembling when I read Abraham. I have also had some written channels! Its so good!
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Posted: Wed Feb 6th, 2008 02:02 pm |
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Welcome Londonboy - to this fantastic Forum. You will enjoy the wonderful threads, wisdom, and insight of so many people! Have a great time in May with Abraham!
Jackie
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